The YOUNG LAD

I saw your face and heard your voice
You waved and smiled and had that stare..
You Got me hooked
So I stopped and just talked to you
You were so smart and wise for your age
Conversations with you was simple fun and direct.
Felt like I was talking to a man instead of a boy.
As hours gone by I was more mesmerized by you.
I stupidly gave u an avenue to contact me.
So we were able to reconnect beyond our first meet up
Hours turned into days and got to know u more.
I realized u’ve been through a lot in your life
And I guess that was what made you a person of
deep sense.
Your humor was on point
Your chill and vibe was incredible.. And contagious
And I just cnt stop my self from falling for you.

The age difference was something
the distance was another thing.
But the chemistry was undeniable…
Then on the fourth day.. I had to decide
Not bcz I don’t want you
Bt bcz I’m choosing myself now.
So I bade farewell.. You said u wanted me to staY
It was hard for me but i know what is right
Before leaving I told u I would never forget you
And that u will always have a special place in my heart

But u said u knew I would bcz it was so short.
I knew you wouldn’t believe me.
But I hope this will prove to you..
I’m preserving these words as an avenue to let you know..
That u were and will not be forgotten..

Remember my dear, young man
The heart has its own language
It just knows how to love….
Despite absence and time..
Hope ur having the best life ever.

The YOUNG LAD named ISAAC

The FIRST NIGHT

I was in the DARK and IMMORAL WORLD
Life was almost unbearable for me.
I was trying to avoid all the emotions
Swelling in my heart.
I was broken, disheartened and distressed.

Then I heard a voice and I saw your face.
I tried to peek out into the light,
You saw me, then you smiled.

You were now my next TARGET.
AND I AM NOW JUST ANOTHER PASSING FANCY.

The Unexpected

It was on October of the year when the world was in Chaos
MY life MIRRORED THE WORLD’S disarray.
I was in an emotional and spiritual turmoil.
The online world was my only escape.

A stranger, a question and an answer
that was what started it all
I knew he found me weird and different and interesting in a way.
And I was thristy of attention and conversations.
So we continued our connection..
For sometime he was very persistent and consistent

His clear green eyes enchanted me
His curiosity and scrutiny was alluring to me
His sound when he was delighted
Captivated my attention and fascinated me…

I told myself.. Why not give it a trY..
I love the how we spend time together..
We talked of anything under the sun.
He taught me things i shouldn’t be doing

Then our differences met face to face
And it was a hell of a fight.
He had his own struggle, I had mine…
Our rough edges was painfully wounding each other.

Now, I try to look back on those days… And ask…
Was it love? Or was it just pure lust..
Well, i may never know..
The only thing I’ll cherish is the lessons learned along the way..

And maybe the name behind the person in this story..
And that’s just a maybe… ☺️

The SNOW LOVER

He enjoys the snow and could thrive in the cold

She loves the beach and feels so alive under the warmth of the sun

Two different worlds.

Two different person, separate and distinct.

A stranger in any sense.

The universe conspired and their worlds collide.

They met, yet, they never saw each other.

But she never forgot how he made her feel loved.

He showed her that she could smile and laugh again

That she could trust someone not to take advantage of her

He gave off his time to listen to her nonsense whinings

He shared his world to her.

The stranger now becomes a friend.

The connection they had, has now been severed.

The feelings she had, hasn’t.

She could still remember the feelings she felt when he showed her a paradise called the angels landing

And that vivid image of the place has never left her heart.

She vowed to visit the place. To see the beautiful place for herself and probably… Maybe.. Meet the stranger for the first time.

But then again.. She fell for the stranger

but she loved the paradise he showed her.

The stranger may go… But the dream of visiting the place.. Will forever stay in her heart.

Sanity

Losing sanity
In a whirlwind of disappointments
Gritting through the chaos
Burrowing in my mind

No one to blame but myself
No one to share but to me
Who was i kidding
Im slowly falling, failling

Let this be over
But the end is really
A destiny mine to decide

The Girl in a Broken Glass

A bottle was held in a palm secure and strong

Was then place in the ocean of uncertainty

To tests its capability in weathering the storm.

Inside of it can be found a delicate creation.

As time pass by the bottle had face certain battles of its own but it provided calm and assurance to the girl placed inside it.

Together they weather the storms they traveled together.

Remember to forget

Everyday i wake up
And remind myself
To remember to forget

Remember to forget
How u made my day brighter

Remember to forget
The reasons why i like you

Remember to forget
That we used to laugh together
That no matter the distance
We felt we were together for a long time.

I wonder when will it be that i wouldn’t have to remind myself that i should remember to forget you. 😊

Logical Thinking

I have encountered a lot of advice and vlogs about how to get a guy.
One thing that struck me most was that a successful man thinks logically. If they dont find you attractive or hot you’re non existent. If they dont find u as an advantage or an add-ons to whatever they have they will not invest. They wont struggle if they know u’re not a profit to them in every aspect in their life. They will walk away. Leave u and find someone who will give them what their logical mind dictates.

At first i thought yeah im doing something wrong.
I might be bad at this dating stuffs and that’s why i end up not keeping them.
Or probably im not as hot as others are that’s why they dont get attracted .
And possibly i am not as successful as i should be to fit in his world.

But then again, as i looked back
I would like myself to remember this:
If they don’t want to be kept
No matter how good u are,
They will always have a way to let u feel that u are not good enough .
That u are just good for a time but not for keeps.
And bcz u allow them to make u feel like it. U also allow them to destroy you.

The right person will know how to treasure ur existence and he will always make you feel u are more than enough.
It will be shown in his actions .. It will be manifested in the efforts he will invest.. And remember .. He will invest no matter how much it will cost him as long as he knows its having you that is at stake. He will never think of what can i get from her..its what can i give her. Its not what can she give me. Its, what can we accomplish together.

MEN cut us some slack. Ur nothing without us. You wont even come to this world without a woman. Remember it takes two… Not just you..

When will this end?

It started as a joke…
And has flourished into a feeling untamed and unmasked
Your presence seems to be my poison.. addicting yet its killing me….
I then lost myself in loving you..
Then you left, leaving me wanting
Heaving and dying..
And you never looked back.
You deceived me. You destroyed me!

To restore needs strong will..

To live again is a miracle… And miracle it will be.. But the question remains… When will it end..

Like this thought by Joanna Hoffman

“The truth is, I pretend to be a cynic, but I am really a dreamer who is terrified of wanting something she may never get.”

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She is gone

The weary look…

The tearful, sad eyes…

The angry and resentful streaks..

She let go of those… and now

She has been reborn….